If old Molly possessed the body I am in right now she would sit and grow an ugly mess of anger and jealousy after what she learned today. She would repeat over and over, the many reasons she should be with him and not her. She would boil over and scream in her brain. She would rant and rave about how it is unfair that there is a person so perfect looking for love and she has more than enough to give. She would sit in misery, eating who knows what, for who knows why, and she would shut down. She would not look at him ever again and she would alienate herself from everyone.
Old Molly doesn’t exist anymore though. New Molly knows that time kinda heals all wounds and Christ heals all else. New Molly might be a little bruised and disappointed, but she knows that there is something else happening. She knows that she needs to focus on her health, her school, her spiritual life, her heart, her future. She knows that anything could happen. She knows that love is not found in humans alone. She knows that while it would be nice to be held by a human love, being held by her Abba Father is ultimate bliss. She knows that she should refocus her frustrations and disappointments into a productive and healthy activity. She knows she should workout instead of eat, read her Bible instead of sulk, and continue on in relationships as usual and be content with the blessing of his friendship.
She has grown up.
