This past week, I was in Atlanta, Georgia, growing in God and savoring the feeling of heeling. It was spectacular! The only thing I did not enjoy about the week was that I had no way of writing or typing my feelings as I so love to do! Fortunately, God blessed me with a fantastic memory haha! So here they are. Here are all of my thoughts, both profound and shallow. They are in chronological order so they start with the road trip to Mobile, Alabama where we stopped for a night and then continue one. They are observations of the soul, mind, heart, body, and everything outside of myself.
1. Sleeping in a van when you are fat is little to no fun.
2. I have yet to find a more beautiful sight to see than woods at twilight.
3. My anxiety for what is to come from the weak is breath taking.
4. Cracker Barrel’s breakfast is extremely sub-par.
5. Who I ate with was not.
6. I have forgotten what a simple smile can do to one’s heart.
7. I cried when Passion 2010 started because I knew that Christ was intending on breaking me for the better. And I wanted it.
8. How could I have been so blind the past 5 years?
9. It is hard for a musically inclined person to focus on the actual goal of worship sometimes.
10. I realized that when my mind is loaded to the brim with knowledge daily, it is hard for me to remember to do the unimportant/necessary stuff like eating.
11. My eating habits and health are directly related to my spiritual habits.
12. I have much to process over the next few weeks.
13. David Crowder’s music is such an obvious God-breathed inspiration!
14. God has called me back to music, and that to lead worship one day would be totally fulfilling.
15. My mind hurts.
16. I switched vans for 2 reasons but I only mentioned one. haha
17. Sleeping pills only make you fall asleep. They don’t keep you asleep.
18. I’d rather look at things and people than sleep.
19. It’s never fun to be scared awake by a guy yelling at you to move your arms while he’s calling you Austin Self. hahaha
20. Cold isn’t too bad. Cold without someone special to keep you warm is though.
21. I’m going to assume the most likely thing in certain situations so that when it turns out to be right, I’m not disappointed, and when it turns out to be wrong, I’m totally happy.
22. I miss music more than relationships.
There you have it.
On another note, I gained 1 pound over the weekend. It was probably from the lack of healthy foods. But I lost a few inches off my body! so that’s good. After tonight though, I will not weigh or measure myself until January 23. I don’t want to become obsessive about it and I want to be surprised every month. Much love
Molly Mahana
